August 2, 2016

An Epiphany!

You don’t need to have an autoimmune disease to benefit from a healthy diet, for many people it is the way to go, well I drank the Kool-Aid, made the commitment, yet I’m still struggling with weight loss.  I’ve got the grocery/farm stand shopping down, I buy real, unprocessed, and whole foods.  On the way home I think of all the shoes and bags I could add to my collection if I wasn’t so health conscience and spending an arm and leg on groceries. I am always anticipating the miraculous changes in my weight, that seem to elude me.  Honestly, there are some days that I experience the joys of my efforts, but there many days that I feel junk food/sweets deprived.  Foods sweetened with figs or dates are delicious, but they don’t always satisfy my sweet tooth.  Intellectually I know the importance of losing weight, plus the benefits and relief to my joints I will gain, if I do lose weight, yet I’m still chubby!

I believe my biggest problem is, I read too much, and am constantly changing my weight loss game plan.  Last night while I was thinking about how I was going to attack my weight loss, I thought about a 7-year-old Mary Ann! Mary Ann 6 years - 1 After being so proud and excited about making my First Communion, I spent hours looking over the pocketbook the school gave the girls.  It contained rosary beads, a scapula, and most importantly a girl’s version mass book.  In the back cover of the book, there was an explanation about visiting the confessional, and categories of sins to confess.  During my post Communion confession, I couldn’t remember any sins I had committed that week, so I made some up and just figured I’d add my lie to next week’s confession.  So I wouldn’t make the same mistake of not remembering my sins, I started to write all the infractions I was making during the week, not forgetting to add last week’s lie to my list. 

Armed with this list in hand and my brothers Boy Scout pen light, I walked up the hill to church for confession.  What a shock that priest had when I fired up the pen light and began.  I was instructed to throw some light on the deepest reaches of my soul and the Father McCarthy was not impressed, I think he went catatonic! It was definitely not a good idea to set off a pen light in a confessional, but I also realized I would have had a successful confession if I was allowed to continue, only because of my well thought out list. It occurred to me that I was approaching my weight journey in the wrong way.  It couldn’t be a day/week on, day/week off commitment, and the only way I would be successful in reshaping my eating habits was to be accountable!  I can’t change the amount of time it is going to take getting into shape, so I am going to do, not think about what I should be doing!Father McCarthy - 1

Take this as a warning, that on my blog, you will occasionally be subjected to an account of my weight loss journey!  I whole-heartedly intend to log my progress, stay committed to my goals, and keep a food journal, and most importantly, not eat Funny Bones for breakfast, lunch, & dinner! 

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